21 Comments
User's avatar
David W Runyan II's avatar

so many kinds of love brought out in your essay, Julia, as for me, this being single business is foreign and unappreciated, but my own doing so until I make my way back home to find my later life woman. my camera and i enjoy our time together in the forest.

Expand full comment
JULIA HUBBEL's avatar

We have times alone, David, mine is extended into decades, so the lessons are important. Not what I thought would happen but it is what I got.

Expand full comment
David W Runyan II's avatar

why, yes, Julia, we DO have times alone and as far as I'm concerned, it sux! I have never been without a woman until I made the decision to do a grandfather stint for a few years in Chicago. I decided to be with the grands and bond with them while young; a decision I don't regret. But these women here are not my cup of tea; tried a few times, it ain't a happening thing. When I head home next year, I'll find myself a lady to my liking and until then, NO WOMAN!

Expand full comment
John Hamilton's avatar

I so appreciate the power in your writing. The words leap out of my phone.

Expand full comment
JULIA HUBBEL's avatar

Pardon my delayed reply, John. I so appreciate your kind words.

Expand full comment
Crone Life's avatar

There are, indeed, many loves in life. Pay attention! You don't want to miss any of it.

Expand full comment
JULIA HUBBEL's avatar

That is so very true!

Expand full comment
Jan M. Flynn's avatar

I'm happily in love with my spouse, yet I'm clear that everything you say here is capital-T true. We're sold such a crock when it comes to romantic love. I shall herewith quote, entirely without permission, a six-word story that I believe was written by Margaret Atwood: "Longed for him. Got him. Shit."

Expand full comment
JULIA HUBBEL's avatar

Be careful what ask for, right? I have the same story...I got what asked for and regretted it almost instantly.

Expand full comment
Eileen Dougharty's avatar

This is gospel to me as a never married childless person (I’m embracing identifying as a straight up spinster). Although lately when I answer “no” to all the usual questions about hubs and kids, I’m getting far less “oh poor you” face and more “good for you”.

Expand full comment
JULIA HUBBEL's avatar

I've noticed that, too. Interesting shift.

Expand full comment
Amy Brown's avatar

Not waiting😀loving life in all its myriad ways. Love comes in so many forms💗

Expand full comment
JULIA HUBBEL's avatar

amen Amyl!

Expand full comment
Georgia Westlake's avatar

You can be ‘single’ too when your husband is vanishing in illness, he wishing he was no longer here - you wishing the same for him, but trying to deal with that guilt. Especially when you want to live, live, live a life you can clearly see, and he probably wants that for you too - but only sort of. Oooh dear….

Expand full comment
JULIA HUBBEL's avatar

This is as true, but with its own heartbreak, Georgia, as being trapped in a loveless marriage. Both are beyond my pay grade as I've not lived those experiences but I can absolutely understand. I have readers who have become caregivers, which changes everything late in life. And I cannot even imagine.

Expand full comment
Kristi Keller 🇨🇦's avatar

Reading this reminded me of a random movie I found on (maybe) Netflix over the weekend. It's called "I'll see you in my dreams." Here's the trailer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F1VbBOTXzfI&t=1s

It actually wasn't what I expected. There are a few twists throughout and it's a beautiful story of human (and dog) relationships. Oh, you also know I'm the one who would choose dogs lol. But if you like a good laugh and cry at the same time, you'll enjoy that movie. It's a pretty accurate display of what relationshipping probably looks like in your age group.

Expand full comment
JULIA HUBBEL's avatar

I gotta wonder if relationshipping (love that) is across the board, as younger folks opt out of marriage, return to meeting in person, eschew kids (cost of housing, anyone?). Those options have always been there, we've always utilized them but I'm not sure we looked at them with such a clear eye, no matter the generation. What is sad about too many of us is that once married, we drop our friends, and our friends are the safety net and sanity system we need when marriage goes awry.

Expand full comment
Kristi Keller 🇨🇦's avatar

Oh yes I've had many friends choose men over friendship and it sucks. I do have one longtime friend who is single. We have a deal to retire together in the same house and just adopt a bunch of dogs 😁

Expand full comment
The Chaos Trials's avatar

I really needed this today. I'm 59 and recently diagnosed autistic/ADHD. I'm in recovery (AGAIN!) from an alcohol relapse. I made the mistake of asking out a women I met at a support group for autistic adults--two days ago. She seemed so cool. 30-hours in, the mask dropped. Not a nice person underneath. And, here I am, a 59-year-old man crying over a woman--again. Attracting the same kind of person--again! Yikes. I love the idea that there are different kinds of love. That gives me some hope.

Expand full comment
JULIA HUBBEL's avatar

I hear you, and I know the feeling. I'm just going to focus on being in life, and see what washes ashore.

Expand full comment
The Chaos Trials's avatar

Thank you. I'm doing the same.

Expand full comment