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Julia, this is outstanding, like all of your posts. First of all, I'm sorry there had been so much abuse in your history. I admire your honesty and your telling it like it is. I also had a dysfunctional family dynamic and have had the words programmed into me that I'm bad and ugly. Luckily, I have been in therapy, which has helped quell these voices, but it will always be a struggle.

I admire that you've dared to do so many things that so many people are afraid to venture out and do. I think it's wonderful. You're right: to prepare for a scale of such a high mountain, one has to be prepared and shouldn't think that a Stairmaster is sufficient training.

My grand adventure is a medical one. As you know, I'm a breast cancer survivor. My big training came with my final surgery, a 10-hour double mastectomy with reconstruction that involved three surgeons, two of them microsurgeons. It took 11 months of self-advocacy to fire the wrong doctors and hire the right ones for this life-saving surgery to take place. During these 11 months, I trained for the surgery like it was the Olympics: swam, ran, lifted weights, walked, etc. While still a brutal surgery, I endured this adventure as well as possible because I was well-trained for it. And, as it turns out, I saved my life, as my supposedly "normal" breast was loaded with precancerous cells, threatening having cancer a second time.

On another note, I love Beryl Markham. She simply is amazing. She's done so many incredible things in her life.

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Julia, you always hit it out of the park. Working on quelling the flames of negative self-talk has been lifelong work for me. When I read an essay like yours, two things happen: first of all I don't feel so along and secondly, I feel inspired to keep rising upward to meet my very best self. Sending love, hugs and goodwill. ~Stephanie

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Heartfelt thanks, Stephanie. Honestly don't we all deal with these voices in one way or another? We're in excellent company!

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Thank you Julia.

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You are so welcome, Caroline.

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Love it. Guess I don’t see humility as self doubt. I see it as the antidote to arrogance for sure!

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huh- I don’t either, Kelly. I wouldn’t characterize humility as doubting ourselves so much as keeping our egos in check. I guess I’d better read that again!

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Relate to this post on so many levels! You, Julia, inspire! I am challenged even more to get out and LIVE! We all need to read, hear, and get off the literal or metaphorical couch! Bless you for this! ~Wendy💜

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